Tweeked
protocols -
reduced Laetril to 3/day,
reduced Modified Citrus Pectin to 1.5 tsp 1 x day
fairly successful with reducing animal protein to 1 x day
Strength
returning
Scary to
feel better doing less protocols....
can't help wonder if I am shortening my life by increasing the quality of
life....
walking
more - 2-3.5 miles sometimes -- sometimes just a mile
Weight
steady
Napping less
- down to an hour(ish) in the morning or in the afternoon most days
Sleep is
fairly good
Stepping
up the use of essential oils to fight the beast
Saw new
doc for IV Vit C infusion -
first infusion tomorrow
discovered on his website he does similar injections to what they did
at oasis of hope!
Immunotherapy! I am hopeful for this door opening
Wondering
if I am supposed to change my integrative, "quarterback" doctor since
he has moved further away (40 min is not a huge drive, but when you are not
feeling good, it is a lot and can turn into a snarly mess) He is the one who
looks at everything and guides me.
Praying for wisdom about that.
Have
several friends that have come/are coming to stay with us - nice distraction!
Had
several lovely conversations with friends recently-
One said,
" I am so overwhelmed when I read you blog. I just want God to fix
this but there is nothing I can DO! What can I do? I just keep
asking God to heal you!"
I hugged
her and said, " Thank you -- that is what I need! That IS
doing something!"
Had to
laugh at her overwhelmed comment -- I try to keep it simple here -- Imagine how
overwhelmed I am! Thank goodness God always guides me!
Another
friend, a teacher, said that she reads my blog and reports to the kids and
guides them how to pray for me. (Can't really write this without crying
--) She said they had been praying for my strength! Again - exactly
what I needed! And it's been working -- I have gotten a little
stronger!
As I lie
down for my many naps I have been asking God what the heck I am supposed to be
learning from all this. There is no really clear answer, but I find that
I am dwelling more on his greatness, his love for me, his provision and his
promises. This is difficult to do since I often am uncomfortable and am
falling into the "pity party" mentality. Mental yo yo ing
between trust and thankfulness, and fear, self pity, frustration and
discontent keep my mind in whiplash!
The fact
is that if I am thankful for all the blessings he pours out on me, I cannot be
other than thankful for the disappointments as well (not that it is easy)
How can I take the good without taking the "bad?"
Who am I to question? How can I know? The obvious answer is that I
cannot.
"'Cause what if your blessings come through raindrops
What if Your healing comes through tears
What if a thousand sleepless nights are what it takes to know
You're near
What if trials of this life are Your mercies in disguise"
Laura Storey, Blessing
Thankful for
B&B
season at the Moritzes
Doctors
who provide information and hopefully healing
God's
Guidance
Cool
"wintry" weather
Rising
energy/stamina
3 day
weekend with Todd
That roof
leak was in garage, not house
Family
and friends who encourage me - who tell me to never give up
Feeling better
so that I can be more positive - less whiplash
Thanks
for checkin' in
reduced Laetril to 3/day,
reduced Modified Citrus Pectin to 1.5 tsp 1 x day
fairly successful with reducing animal protein to 1 x day
Strength
returning
Scary to
feel better doing less protocols....
can't help wonder if I am shortening my life by increasing the quality of
life....
walking
more - 2-3.5 miles sometimes -- sometimes just a mile
Weight
steady
Napping
less - down to an hour(ish) in the morning or in the afternoon most days
Sleep is
fairly good
Stepping
up the use of essential oils to fight the beast
Saw new
doc for IV Vit C infusion -
first infusion tomorrow
discovered on his website he does the same injections that they did
at oasis of hope!
Immunotherapy! I am hopeful for this door opening
Wondering
if I am supposed to change my integrative, "quarterback" doctor since
he has moved further away (40 min is not a huge drive, but when you are not
feeling good, it is a lot and can turn into a snarly mess) He is the one who
looks at everything and guides me
Praying for wisdom about that
Have several
friends that have come/are coming to stay with us - nice distraction!
Had
several lovely conversations with friends recently-
One said,
" I am so overwhelmed when I read you blog. I just want God to fix
this but there is nothing I can DO! What can I do? I just keep
asking God to heal you!"
I hugged
her and said, " Thank you -- that is what I need! That IS
doing something!"
Had to
laugh at her overwhelmed comment -- I try to keep it simple here -- Imagine how
overwhelmed I am! Thank goodness God always guides me!
Another
friend, a teacher, said that she reads my blog and reports to the kids and
guides them how to pray for me. (Can't really write this without crying
--) She said they had been praying for my strength! Again - exactly
what I needed! And it's been working -- I have gotten a little
stronger!
As I lie
down for my many naps I have been asking God what the heck I am supposed to be
learning from all this. There is no really clear answer, but I find that
I am dwelling more on his greatness, his love for me, his provision and his
promises. This is difficult to do since I often am uncomfortable and am
falling into the "pity party" mentality. Mental yo yo ing
between trust and thankfulness, and fear, self pity, frustration and discontent
keep my mind in whiplash!
The fact
is that if I am thankful for all the blessings he pours out on me, I cannot be
other than thankful for the disappointments as well (not that it is easy)
How can I take the good without taking the "bad?"
Who am I to question? How can I know? The obvious answer is that I
cannot.
"'Cause what if your blessings come through raindrops
What if Your healing comes through tears
What if a thousand sleepless nights are what it takes to know
You're near
What if trials of this life are Your mercies in disguise" Laura Storey, -Blessings
Thankful
for
B&B
season at the Moritzes
Doctors
who provide information and hopefully healing
God's
Guidance
Cool
"wintry" weather
Rising
energy/stamina
3 day
weekend with Todd
That roof
leak was in garage, not house
Family
and friends who encourage me - who tell me to never give up
Feeling better
so that I can be more positive - less whiplash
Keeping up with a busier schedule
Thanks
for checkin' in! Ya'll are the best!
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