I thought by doing integrative/alternative, that I would feel good while doing the various protocols. It is definitely better than doing chemo, but the continuous gut aches, gut twitches, upset stomach, gassiness and aches do wear on me. Its a matter of never really feeling good - not great - good. This causes my spirits to tank repeatedly. It's an uphill fight.
Since part of the reason I blog is to let people know about the alternative ways of dealing with cancer, it is only fair to share the caveat that it is not for the faint of heart. These protocols do work hard on your system and wear you out! It has sapped my strength. I am taking lots of naps - If health were granted by how much a patient slept, I would be completely well! There is not tons of energy left to do things like call around to infusion places to see who takes insurance and how much it costs for what size of IV vit C bag - or (my person favorite [sarcasm]) to argue with Quest and the insurance company! Yes I am still arguing with Quest! over the $2500 bill from last Summer and the $400 bill from October!
Sorry - I digress! However the theme is the same -- Standard vs Alternative care
If I were doing the chemo like my onco wants, neither of these bills would be an issue and i would not have to shop the best price on IV Vit C!
Anyway -
Several days ago, after a restless night, the first words out of my mouth in the morning [even before good morning] were loaded with snarkiness, "maybe I'll just chuck all this and go back to steak, potatoes, wine and cookies!"
Obviously that is not what I am doing, but the thought has crossed my mind more than once.
Anyone considering doing alternative therapies needs to have a great support network like y'all are!
It would be impossible to keep my spirits up without the blessing of your continuous messages and encouragement keeping me grounded and focused.m Thank you!
It has been rugged week, so here goes - Thankful that
I could attend the auction - even if I had to leave early
for my sweet friend who offered to pick me up from the auction!
we have warm weather and sunshine
even tho my stomach is upset, there are things that still taste pretty good
I am not craving wine and cookies (does that tell you how icky I feel?)
if I have to take tons of naps, at least I feel a bit better when I wake up
a friend can come and help with whatever needs doing and cheer me up with her understanding help
sleep is not usually too elusive and that I usually wake up feeling ok
I am not worried about being too skinny
the tumors are easy to find to rub frankincense on them
my husband loves to cook
I have an amazing valentine of almost 35 years
we have this amazing support network in all of you -- you are such a blessing to us!
The God of angel armies is always by my side....trying to keep my focus on him and not on all the things that fly around in my head and all the infirmities of my body.
Trying to, "consider it pure joy...whenever you face trials of many kinds, because you know that the testing of your faith produces perseverance. Let perseverance finish its work so that you may be mature and complete not lacking anything.... James 1:2-4
Thanks for checkin' in - Y'all keep me going!
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