Chemo postponed perhaps til Wed - but I feel pretty good!
My blood work was not good enough for me to get chemo today as the infection fighters are very, very low and the other counts are low also. I got a shot today of nupogen and will get another tomorrow. (This is the same shot they gave me before I flew to MT at Christmas.) The hope is that this will give me the boost that I need to be well enough to have chemo on Wed.
The only other thing that I can do to help this is to exercise...tho he was not excited about me going to a club because of all the germs -- He liked the mall idea better - so I walked earlier and am going back again to walk some more...tough to get motivated!
What is so strange to me about all this is that I feel good! I have energy, am eating well and have been walking about 2 1/2 miles daily the second week (chemo week even climbing the stairs is work!) I do get tired pretty quickly though....
So in the category of whining--
there are so many extremely frail and ill patients who get chemo....why not me?
this shift meant that I had to change all the care arrangements that were set up because of Todd's traveling...and
I won't be feeling very great for going to the ballet this weekend :( I love the ballet and am sad that I'll be really weary and have to wear a dumb little mask, if I feel good enough to go.....
How am I doing? I'm better now, but I was shocked and I cried --
you psyche yourself up for something like this -- to have it declined when I feel good was like having ice water dumped over me. The possibility of is messing up so many of our plans was really hard for me...but (Ps 33:11) The plans of the Lord stand forever...
Enough whining -- I am very thankful
that even if my blood is poor, I feel decent
that there is a shot that can help me
that I have helpful friends that I have to call
that Todd's less stressed because I'll be on chemo a shorter time while he is gone
that the goal of this is treatment is a cure
that we have tickets to the ballet to look forward to
that I have a mall close by to walk in
Strength will rise as we wait upon the Lord.... praying that this is the case...
Attitude adjustment time - boy do I need it!
God's guided this from the very beginning --
I don't get what he's doing now, but later I'll get it (John 13:7)
His plan is to prosper me and not to harm me (Jer 29:11)--
I have work to do for him (Eph 2:10) --
He is my healer(Deut32:39) --
He is always with me(Matt 28:20)--
He will strengthen me(Is 41:10)--
He'll work this out and good will come from it (Ro 8:28)
I believe, so I will see His glory (John 11:40)
He has blessed me to be a blessing (Gen 12:2)
And I remember his promise from James 1:12
Blessed is the man who perseveres under trial, because when he has stood the test, he will receive the crown of life that God has promised to those who love him...
Thanks for checking in and for praying for us!
God's blessings to each of you!
Monday, February 13, 2012
Sunday, February 12, 2012
Chemo #7 Tomorrow -
Hopefully my bloodwork will be good enough to get chemo - as of last Monday it was bad enough that they would not have given it to me if it had been a chemo date.
I have been strong enough to walk and be a domestic diva :) though I truly tire quickly.
Today is a typical day before chemo - lotsa nerves!
I woke early and spent some time with God before the moon set....
Read many treasured scriptures that comforted me and gave me peace and strength --
I am cutting this short because Todd has to leave tomorrow on a business trip so I am going to enjoy his company while I can. Many of you have offered help and to come check in on me --Thank you-thank you so much! I appreciate it very much - and Todd especially does --- he feels terrible the way this fell -- but what are you going to do? He has been with me for so much!
Thank you for your prayers on our behalf --
Is 41:10
So do not fear, for I am with you
do not be dismayed, for I am your God
I will strengthen you and help you,
I will uphold you with my righteous right hand
Is 40:31
but those who hope in the Lord
will renew their strength
They will soar on wings like eagles,
they will run and not grow weary,
they will walk and not be faint.
I have been strong enough to walk and be a domestic diva :) though I truly tire quickly.
Today is a typical day before chemo - lotsa nerves!
I woke early and spent some time with God before the moon set....
Read many treasured scriptures that comforted me and gave me peace and strength --
I am cutting this short because Todd has to leave tomorrow on a business trip so I am going to enjoy his company while I can. Many of you have offered help and to come check in on me --Thank you-thank you so much! I appreciate it very much - and Todd especially does --- he feels terrible the way this fell -- but what are you going to do? He has been with me for so much!
Thank you for your prayers on our behalf --
Is 41:10
So do not fear, for I am with you
do not be dismayed, for I am your God
I will strengthen you and help you,
I will uphold you with my righteous right hand
Is 40:31
but those who hope in the Lord
will renew their strength
They will soar on wings like eagles,
they will run and not grow weary,
they will walk and not be faint.
Thursday, February 9, 2012
You choose - Bitter or Better
Doing well! Troubled by side effects
not sleeping (moon or chemo do you think?)
mouth sores - very painful :(
hands and feet are swelling at times, burning hot at times and cracky peely
chemo makes my sinuses work overtime, so my nose is cracked and painful also -
makes sleeping hard !
energy flags pretty quickly
Very thankful to have energy despite the new side effects!
I was blessed on Tues to be able to attend Bible study and still have enough energy to attend Midge's funeral...It was stunning to me to see in her writing, in her Daniel workbook "Death is the last foe Jesus conquers" (not sure I quoted that exactly right) She wrote that last Tues and began her journey home Wed.
The lesson for that week was on Shadrach, Meschach and Abednego in the firey furnace. Beth Moore talked extensively about the fire --- When we have fires in our lives,
We can be delivered from the fire -- in which case our faith is built.
We can be delivered through the fire - in which case our faith is refined.
We can be delivered by the fire into Jesus loving arms - in which case, our faith is perfected.
This was the lesson that we studied last Tuesday -- the last lesson Midge studied...and now her faith is perfected!
God's timing is stunning......it is perfect - even if we don't understand...
Ps 75:2 I choose the appointed time
Mark 13:33 Be alert, on guard! You do not know when that time will come...
God is seldom late, but He is never early...
When things go wrong, you have a choice how to react.
You can waste time and energy being mad at God and getting bitter - or you can give the whole mess to God and ask Him to bring good out of it.
This is a very difficult thing to do. It is not easy to have your entire life turned upside down! I'd be lyin' if I said there were not tears shed and a bit of panic! When you have buried both parents because of cancer, and you find out you have cancer -- you have to work really hard to not just scream at God!
"It's not fair - we just got dad's house sold-we are supposed to be empty nesters-able to travel on a whim and enjoy "freedom"-we've been separated from May-August -- we were planning to get some late season camping in - to do a getaway to recover from our separation --to celebrate Your goodness in everything that happened with my dad's situation--I am young- I have things I want to do--even some things for You--but I have plans! - it is not fair - I don't want to die - I don't want to endure chemo-to be sick- I don't want to deal with this - I just want my life to be the way it was - I am sick of seeing doctors, surgeons and sick of hospitals and clinics after last year w my poor dad....aaarrrrrrgggghhhhh I am so mad - don't you care? don't you love me?????
To these cries, I feel my loving heavenly Father pointing out all the ways in which He has blessed us over the many years together (30 in April!)
-adopting a 16 yr old when we were 26 (fools rush in where angels fear to tread!)
(this is a whole fantastic story full of God's intervention!)
-Todd's success professionally
-Our houses selling rapidly when we needed them to
-Our call to St Louis
-Healthy children
-Our faith growth
-His guidance and protection of us through marriage struggles
-a great church/school home that made faith real/practical/relevant
-our children's faith, which is truly their own!
-God calling Todd out of the secular world (our family all thought we were nuts! fanatics)
-Our kids protection from the devil's work
-His perfect timing calling us here
Paul declared for Concordia Mequon in Nov.
LHSAGM came into the picture in Dec - interviews and a call
time for a family vacation/decision to answer the call
-His intervention time and time again with the Lutheran High School Assoc
-getting to see Karl more than we thought(he lives in MT and flights are grossly overpriced)
-jobs for our kids in a down economy
-Many many God moments throughout my dad's illness and death (to many to list here)
-The very few symptoms that pushed me to not dawdle getting to the doc(see the 10/9 post)
-The speed with which I was seen at the Vince Lombardi clinic
-The huge amount of people who cared and prayed for us (still do!)
-The surgery date being moved a whole month (thank you for praying)
-The speed with which I healed
-Karl becoming engaged to a Godly woman of great strength and character
-The mild Winter (for the stinging hands)
-That my feet (which the reynauds affected greatly in the past) are unaffected!
-The meals and rides that just keep on coming.
I know I am missing some,but that's a long list
When I look at that--at all God has provided for me - for our family
How he has not just given us the bare necessities -
but how He ices the cake and serves it with champagne and roses...
How can I possibly continue with my ranting???
Ro 8:32 He who did not spare his son, but gave him up for us all, how will he not also, along with him, give us all things?
Ps 145:16 You open your hand and satisfy the desire of every living thing
Because I used to be very bitter, and it is ugly -my only choice is to give this to God, and pray that he will use it to His Glory.
He was pretty clear with me that I was not to be shy about sharing all this with you
(I still can't believe some of the things I say--but I get continued feedback that it is helpful)
I believe that He has a plan (Jer 29:11), that He has work for me to do (Eph 2:10), and that He works all things to good for me because I love Him(Ro 8:28).....
Since this is the road that I am on,
I am thankful that I am not alone (Is 43:1-3) (Ps 23) and
I chose to be better,
because I have done bitter, and it is miserable ....
Praying that He gets the glory.....
not sleeping (moon or chemo do you think?)
mouth sores - very painful :(
hands and feet are swelling at times, burning hot at times and cracky peely
chemo makes my sinuses work overtime, so my nose is cracked and painful also -
makes sleeping hard !
energy flags pretty quickly
Very thankful to have energy despite the new side effects!
I was blessed on Tues to be able to attend Bible study and still have enough energy to attend Midge's funeral...It was stunning to me to see in her writing, in her Daniel workbook "Death is the last foe Jesus conquers" (not sure I quoted that exactly right) She wrote that last Tues and began her journey home Wed.
The lesson for that week was on Shadrach, Meschach and Abednego in the firey furnace. Beth Moore talked extensively about the fire --- When we have fires in our lives,
We can be delivered from the fire -- in which case our faith is built.
We can be delivered through the fire - in which case our faith is refined.
We can be delivered by the fire into Jesus loving arms - in which case, our faith is perfected.
This was the lesson that we studied last Tuesday -- the last lesson Midge studied...and now her faith is perfected!
God's timing is stunning......it is perfect - even if we don't understand...
Ps 75:2 I choose the appointed time
Mark 13:33 Be alert, on guard! You do not know when that time will come...
God is seldom late, but He is never early...
When things go wrong, you have a choice how to react.
You can waste time and energy being mad at God and getting bitter - or you can give the whole mess to God and ask Him to bring good out of it.
This is a very difficult thing to do. It is not easy to have your entire life turned upside down! I'd be lyin' if I said there were not tears shed and a bit of panic! When you have buried both parents because of cancer, and you find out you have cancer -- you have to work really hard to not just scream at God!
"It's not fair - we just got dad's house sold-we are supposed to be empty nesters-able to travel on a whim and enjoy "freedom"-we've been separated from May-August -- we were planning to get some late season camping in - to do a getaway to recover from our separation --to celebrate Your goodness in everything that happened with my dad's situation--I am young- I have things I want to do--even some things for You--but I have plans! - it is not fair - I don't want to die - I don't want to endure chemo-to be sick- I don't want to deal with this - I just want my life to be the way it was - I am sick of seeing doctors, surgeons and sick of hospitals and clinics after last year w my poor dad....aaarrrrrrgggghhhhh I am so mad - don't you care? don't you love me?????
To these cries, I feel my loving heavenly Father pointing out all the ways in which He has blessed us over the many years together (30 in April!)
-adopting a 16 yr old when we were 26 (fools rush in where angels fear to tread!)
(this is a whole fantastic story full of God's intervention!)
-Todd's success professionally
-Our houses selling rapidly when we needed them to
-Our call to St Louis
-Healthy children
-Our faith growth
-His guidance and protection of us through marriage struggles
-a great church/school home that made faith real/practical/relevant
-our children's faith, which is truly their own!
-God calling Todd out of the secular world (our family all thought we were nuts! fanatics)
-Our kids protection from the devil's work
-His perfect timing calling us here
Paul declared for Concordia Mequon in Nov.
LHSAGM came into the picture in Dec - interviews and a call
time for a family vacation/decision to answer the call
-His intervention time and time again with the Lutheran High School Assoc
-getting to see Karl more than we thought(he lives in MT and flights are grossly overpriced)
-jobs for our kids in a down economy
-Many many God moments throughout my dad's illness and death (to many to list here)
-The very few symptoms that pushed me to not dawdle getting to the doc(see the 10/9 post)
-The speed with which I was seen at the Vince Lombardi clinic
-The huge amount of people who cared and prayed for us (still do!)
-The surgery date being moved a whole month (thank you for praying)
-The speed with which I healed
-Karl becoming engaged to a Godly woman of great strength and character
-The mild Winter (for the stinging hands)
-That my feet (which the reynauds affected greatly in the past) are unaffected!
-The meals and rides that just keep on coming.
I know I am missing some,but that's a long list
When I look at that--at all God has provided for me - for our family
How he has not just given us the bare necessities -
but how He ices the cake and serves it with champagne and roses...
How can I possibly continue with my ranting???
Ro 8:32 He who did not spare his son, but gave him up for us all, how will he not also, along with him, give us all things?
Ps 145:16 You open your hand and satisfy the desire of every living thing
Because I used to be very bitter, and it is ugly -my only choice is to give this to God, and pray that he will use it to His Glory.
He was pretty clear with me that I was not to be shy about sharing all this with you
(I still can't believe some of the things I say--but I get continued feedback that it is helpful)
I believe that He has a plan (Jer 29:11), that He has work for me to do (Eph 2:10), and that He works all things to good for me because I love Him(Ro 8:28).....
Since this is the road that I am on,
I am thankful that I am not alone (Is 43:1-3) (Ps 23) and
I chose to be better,
because I have done bitter, and it is miserable ....
Praying that He gets the glory.....
Monday, February 6, 2012
Prayer is powerful and effective.....
Still feeling good today - just a bit tired- think my cold is trying to re-establish itself!
You may remember that last week my Tues morning bible study lost a dear lady who had been coming for ten years or so, Midge. I didn't know her very well --we were good acquaintances. This morning, I was humbled yet again. Midge's niece Susan, who is also a member of our Tues morning study, sent out an e-mail saying that when they took Midge's clothes out of the hospital bag, she had been wearing my bracelet.......
This affected me very powerfully --
an acquaintance - who hardly knew me, was wearing my bracelet when she began her final journey to heaven.....she cared enough to talk to God about me...
maybe it's chemo, maybe it's hormones--but I haven't stopped crying...
Early on in this journey, I remember saying repeatedly that I was blown away by how many people were praying for me--people who in most cases did not know me....
Midge brings that back home --
people that I don't know - that have no reason to give a flip about me -- are praying for me...
and those prayers are getting me through the rugged weeks - like last week...and the week before...and the week before.....
We are all a part of the body of Christ. When one member suffers, we all suffer --
and we pray for each other
and lift each other up
and carry each other when we ourselves cannot carry on
When I was in Indiana, sitting vigil with my father from May 2o thru June 27, that was some of the most grueling time I have ever endured. Yet because of the prayers of fellow believers, I was able to cope --
- to face his death
- to face our parting
- to endure his pain and suffering
- to be gone from my best friend - Todd
- to be gone from my network of friends
AND those prayers enabled my husband to continue to work, commute to Indiana, miss me but still function -- and we survived the stress
We were carried on the prayers of the faithful.
We are all part of the body of Christ. When someone pops into your head,
pray for them.
The more you do this, the more people God will bring to your mind -- it is really very cool!
If you add to that, letting them know you prayed for them, you will find out that sometimes they were in a really dark place, and your prayers made a difference --
- prayed for a friend from high school for about 2 weeks - found out 3 mos later when I finally made contact with him that he had been in the hospital after a really bad motorcycle accident - that's when God kept bringing him to mind
- prayed for one of the kids that used to come to youth group - found out she had just moved and was settling in to a different part of the country - new job etc.
......I could go on and on with examples...try it and let me know your stories!
You never know what God's gonna do--it's our job to
"love each other as I have loved you" John 15:12
Life is so fragile....handle with prayer
We are here - and then we are gone....
We need to make a difference for the kingdom while we are here....
So, who ya prayin for? (besides me! thank you!)
Pray it, friend! Others are prayin for you!
You may remember that last week my Tues morning bible study lost a dear lady who had been coming for ten years or so, Midge. I didn't know her very well --we were good acquaintances. This morning, I was humbled yet again. Midge's niece Susan, who is also a member of our Tues morning study, sent out an e-mail saying that when they took Midge's clothes out of the hospital bag, she had been wearing my bracelet.......
This affected me very powerfully --
an acquaintance - who hardly knew me, was wearing my bracelet when she began her final journey to heaven.....she cared enough to talk to God about me...
maybe it's chemo, maybe it's hormones--but I haven't stopped crying...
Early on in this journey, I remember saying repeatedly that I was blown away by how many people were praying for me--people who in most cases did not know me....
Midge brings that back home --
people that I don't know - that have no reason to give a flip about me -- are praying for me...
and those prayers are getting me through the rugged weeks - like last week...and the week before...and the week before.....
We are all a part of the body of Christ. When one member suffers, we all suffer --
and we pray for each other
and lift each other up
and carry each other when we ourselves cannot carry on
When I was in Indiana, sitting vigil with my father from May 2o thru June 27, that was some of the most grueling time I have ever endured. Yet because of the prayers of fellow believers, I was able to cope --
- to face his death
- to face our parting
- to endure his pain and suffering
- to be gone from my best friend - Todd
- to be gone from my network of friends
AND those prayers enabled my husband to continue to work, commute to Indiana, miss me but still function -- and we survived the stress
We were carried on the prayers of the faithful.
We are all part of the body of Christ. When someone pops into your head,
pray for them.
The more you do this, the more people God will bring to your mind -- it is really very cool!
If you add to that, letting them know you prayed for them, you will find out that sometimes they were in a really dark place, and your prayers made a difference --
- prayed for a friend from high school for about 2 weeks - found out 3 mos later when I finally made contact with him that he had been in the hospital after a really bad motorcycle accident - that's when God kept bringing him to mind
- prayed for one of the kids that used to come to youth group - found out she had just moved and was settling in to a different part of the country - new job etc.
......I could go on and on with examples...try it and let me know your stories!
You never know what God's gonna do--it's our job to
"love each other as I have loved you" John 15:12
Life is so fragile....handle with prayer
We are here - and then we are gone....
We need to make a difference for the kingdom while we are here....
So, who ya prayin for? (besides me! thank you!)
Pray it, friend! Others are prayin for you!
Sunday, February 5, 2012
Happy Sunday! Riding the roller coaster
I feel the best I have felt in a long time!
still a little nauseated, but I have energy! Yippee!
the cold still is here, but it is managable!
Blood work was not very good, but I hope this is an indication that I am on the upswing!
Spent yesterday conquering Mount Washmore and cleaning the house. What a great feeling it is to see something that needs doing, and being able to get up, take care of it - and sit back down without feeling dizzy, throw-upy or exhausted! I was never so thankful to wash my kitchen counter in my life! It's truly the little things in life that you have to be thankful for!!
Getting out of my jammies for the first time in several days is another big praise!
Was blessed to have a dear friend from St Louis come visit last night, and I even had enough energy to enjoy that! Thank you God for the energy.
Ps 118:24 sings in my heart -
This is the day the Lord has made - let us rejoice and be glad in it!
I am so thankful to look forward to a day with more enthusiasm than many have been of late!!
Thank you God! :) happy dance! very, very thankful --
still a little nauseated, but I have energy! Yippee!
the cold still is here, but it is managable!
Blood work was not very good, but I hope this is an indication that I am on the upswing!
Spent yesterday conquering Mount Washmore and cleaning the house. What a great feeling it is to see something that needs doing, and being able to get up, take care of it - and sit back down without feeling dizzy, throw-upy or exhausted! I was never so thankful to wash my kitchen counter in my life! It's truly the little things in life that you have to be thankful for!!
Getting out of my jammies for the first time in several days is another big praise!
Was blessed to have a dear friend from St Louis come visit last night, and I even had enough energy to enjoy that! Thank you God for the energy.
Ps 118:24 sings in my heart -
This is the day the Lord has made - let us rejoice and be glad in it!
I am so thankful to look forward to a day with more enthusiasm than many have been of late!!
Thank you God! :) happy dance! very, very thankful --
Friday, February 3, 2012
Kinda crabby-with a wake up call!
Nausea, numbness and tingling hang on. Typing still is an adventure
The main chemo drug i am on is 5FU. It can cause a side effect called hand-foot syndrome. This involves your hands (in my case) and feet becoming red and swollen, the skin cracking and becoming peely. The solution for this is to put on lots of lotion and keep you hands and feet cool because anything warm enhances the problem.
The secondary drug, oxalyplatin, that I am on has the cold sensitivity as a side effect. This causes numbness and tingling in my fingers up to my second knuckle (yes - it goes farther each round). It also causes clumsiness (dropping items b/c you can't feel them) and difficulty in typing and picking up utensils. The solution for this problem is to keep your hands warm - to run them under warm water whenever the stinging happens, and to use the "hot hands" hot packs when outside.
Yesterday, the nurse said I was to not use the hot packs at all and to walk a very fine line between warm and cold......which makes absolutely no sense because even picking up a plate causes the numbness and tingling....
I am thoroughly frustrated and grumpy about all this....
Add to this that they said to keep taking the benedryl to reduce my facial swelling, even though it did not reduce the swelling.....fortunately, the swelling went down on it's own.
I am tired of all of this and just want to feel like myself again.....rrrrrrr! However, God always puts things in perspective.
My Tues a.m. bible study had a shock yesterday. One of the sweet ladies who attends, Midge, went to dinner Wed. night with her husband. She collapsed during dinner and was rushed to the hospital. Thursday around noon, she went home to be with her saviour.....
My problems are very, very small in the face of this loss.
Please remember her husband and her niece (who also attends our bible study) as their worlds has been turned upside down.
My friends---never leave each other in anger. You do not know what is around the corner. Having to live with your last words to someone being in anger would be such a curse. Always part with a sweet word. You never know...
Thankful today for
Todd, Paul, Karl and Gretchen and our extended family -
you - my dear friends
God's word that holds out hope no matter what the situation
dinner delivered and drivers to help us
God is our refuge and strength - an ever present help in trouble...
Therefore, we will not fear, tho the earth give way, and the mountains fall into the heart of the sea.....Ps 46....
God Bless your Friday!
The main chemo drug i am on is 5FU. It can cause a side effect called hand-foot syndrome. This involves your hands (in my case) and feet becoming red and swollen, the skin cracking and becoming peely. The solution for this is to put on lots of lotion and keep you hands and feet cool because anything warm enhances the problem.
The secondary drug, oxalyplatin, that I am on has the cold sensitivity as a side effect. This causes numbness and tingling in my fingers up to my second knuckle (yes - it goes farther each round). It also causes clumsiness (dropping items b/c you can't feel them) and difficulty in typing and picking up utensils. The solution for this problem is to keep your hands warm - to run them under warm water whenever the stinging happens, and to use the "hot hands" hot packs when outside.
Yesterday, the nurse said I was to not use the hot packs at all and to walk a very fine line between warm and cold......which makes absolutely no sense because even picking up a plate causes the numbness and tingling....
I am thoroughly frustrated and grumpy about all this....
Add to this that they said to keep taking the benedryl to reduce my facial swelling, even though it did not reduce the swelling.....fortunately, the swelling went down on it's own.
I am tired of all of this and just want to feel like myself again.....rrrrrrr! However, God always puts things in perspective.
My Tues a.m. bible study had a shock yesterday. One of the sweet ladies who attends, Midge, went to dinner Wed. night with her husband. She collapsed during dinner and was rushed to the hospital. Thursday around noon, she went home to be with her saviour.....
My problems are very, very small in the face of this loss.
Please remember her husband and her niece (who also attends our bible study) as their worlds has been turned upside down.
My friends---never leave each other in anger. You do not know what is around the corner. Having to live with your last words to someone being in anger would be such a curse. Always part with a sweet word. You never know...
Thankful today for
Todd, Paul, Karl and Gretchen and our extended family -
you - my dear friends
God's word that holds out hope no matter what the situation
dinner delivered and drivers to help us
God is our refuge and strength - an ever present help in trouble...
Therefore, we will not fear, tho the earth give way, and the mountains fall into the heart of the sea.....Ps 46....
God Bless your Friday!
Wednesday, February 1, 2012
Disconnect today - very tired
Woke up to swollen lips and throat - thankful to have benedryl to take
Got disconnected from my ball and chain - Yay!
Have to go back tomorrow because of the swelling-They want to check me again, this time at St. Lukes
They told me to take my anti-nausea with the benedryl. Both make me sleep!
My hands continue to be a problem - stinging and clumsy
Todd came home to take fix food for me and walk me around the block.
Poor man has a cold now :( like he needs anything else!
Slept much of the day today -a deeper sleep. Before I would be in a twilight zone, where I could direct my mind and I prayed a fair bit. Today was more like a black hole - just deep sleep.
Drugs.....
Feel yucky -just marking time....Thanks for marking time with us!
Romans 12:12 Be joyful in hope, patient in affliction and faithful in prayer.
Got disconnected from my ball and chain - Yay!
Have to go back tomorrow because of the swelling-They want to check me again, this time at St. Lukes
They told me to take my anti-nausea with the benedryl. Both make me sleep!
My hands continue to be a problem - stinging and clumsy
Todd came home to take fix food for me and walk me around the block.
Poor man has a cold now :( like he needs anything else!
Slept much of the day today -a deeper sleep. Before I would be in a twilight zone, where I could direct my mind and I prayed a fair bit. Today was more like a black hole - just deep sleep.
Drugs.....
Feel yucky -just marking time....Thanks for marking time with us!
Romans 12:12 Be joyful in hope, patient in affliction and faithful in prayer.
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